Seeing the Light

"Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.  How do you know this is the experience you need?  Because this is the experience you are having at the moment."  -Eckhart Tolle 

Running two businesses, running a household, raising two boys, and holding my relationship together with my husband… needless to say I was busy and devastatingly unbalanced.

I suffered silently with the pain of extreme anxiety. I felt I had to put on a brave face and carry on. I managed with medications and alcohol.  One day the suffering got so intense; I could not see any way out. I was having a disagreement with a certain individual and I was going to "win" no matter what.  I wanted so bad to be right and superior. This made me bitter, angry and insane. Suddenly, I remembered the book,“The Secret” book and searched up what the heck was the secret that I should know about??  That led me to starting a journal outlining two things:

What do I want in my life? 

What I am Grateful for? 

"The Secret" led me to Eckhart Tolle, and once I watched the first YouTube video, I was hooked! His words rang true to the very core of my being, my infinite essence. 

“Focus your attention on the Now and tell me what problem you have at this moment.” 

-Eckhart Tolle 

Some of the wisdom that Eckhart has taught me:  

There is a deeper dimension in all of us that is beyond our thoughts.  It is pure awareness or consciousness.  The access point to this dimension is in the present moment.  We need to still our mind and connect to this awakened state.   

Why do we need to Go beyond our Thoughts and Physical Sensations? 

The true essence of who we are…pure spirit…pure consciousness is waiting to be discovered.  (our true self).  Within this dimension lies the source of all creation…the universal mind…the limitless…the infinite…the timeless...  Here we are whole and complete.  There is no separateness here, we are the “one consciousness”.  Human evolution comes from achieving higher levels of consciousness.  It is a necessary step right now for each of us to take on this planet for our survival.   

These teachings on Consciousness have given me a deep sense of peace and joy. I no longer feel the need to argue, be "right," or prove my superiority. I am sober and unmedicated.  Anxiety is in check. It comes to visit every now and then, I accept the emotion and let it pass through me. I have developed strategies to stay present in the moment; and it is very comforting to know that my breath is always hand, and can lead me to stillness. Won't you join me there?

"Stillness is where creativity and solutions to problems are found."   -Eckhart Tolle